When I look over the website I cant help feeling that its slightly chaotic.  Yet, today, while photographing and organizing some of my paintings and drawings I couldn’t help feel like the site has been a tremendous help to me.  Its put all the fragments of my creativity, my thoughts and ideas and put them together in one place, along with new leads (available in internet links) for future projects.

Another great insight that the website has given me is that there always tends to be a feeling of chaos in my life.  In my art, in my photography and in my mind there is always this recurring theme of incompleteness and imperfection.  In the past it would upset me and be a thorn in my side.  I’d look upon an unfinished painting or an imperfect (in my mind) painting and I would want to toss it or destroy it.  But, age (I’m nearing 40) has mellowed me out and made me more accepting and compromising. I’ve learned the art of collage to complete paintings with the kind of realism that I’d like to achieve, but simply don’t have time for.  I’ve learned to embrace the idea in my mind and enjoy seeing it come to completion in some shape and form–instead of just ‘wishing’ for it to happen, but never acting.

It is an amazing thing that I have actually put together this website, put up my pictures, added writings and continue to stay interested and develop it because in the past I would have already quit.  If I keep this up, it might actually mean I’m changing.